Weighing In

There are so many individuals out there that have something to say, they have a story to tell. One must feel like their story is worth telling if they decide to share aspects of their lives or to voice their opinions or beliefs publicly.

I use facebook a lot for my forum and my venting. It confuses me when some get utterly offensive over MY opinions. However, this is what you set yourself up for when you put certain things out there, right? So if one decides to pursue this route of expressing themselves, it is quite obvious they better develop a thick skin. Now you would think a big girl (weight wise) such as myself would have said thick skin, as I'm thick in general. LOL. However, in actuality I'm very sensitive.

I talk about my weight A LOT! It annoys the mess out my cousin Lucie, who is my closest ally in this world. She says it makes others uncomfortable. For example, I'll put myself down by saying things like "I'm so fat, I'm a big girl" etc. during conversations. It's obviously a very sensitive issue with me. It bothers me that I'm so dissatisfied with my weight, yet I continue to fail at losing it. It weights down on me (no pun intended) like a bowling ball on my chest. I do desire to lose weight. I want to be healthy and I want to look good in my clothes. I learned from a very early age that this world is unforgiving to big folks.

Weight detracts from so much. When one is overweight it takes away from your beauty and your confidence. Okay, perhaps I shouldn't make a general statement like that. MY weight, makes me feel less confident and makes me feel less beautiful. I'll never forget when I was in JHS, the boys in the class decided to devise a list of girls they thought were pretty. On the list was a girl who simply was not that attractive, I swear to you I was much better looking than her, but you know what, she was skinny and I was not. That was the bottom line, it boiled down to weight.